Addictied to photography and currently, a bear.
- Edna Mode (The Incredibles)
Welcome back dear me. SO, actually I have so many topics to talk about here but I have to pick one and I pick about me and surrounding. (Actually this always becomes my topic up until now? I don’t know)
New places, new friends, new story, and new chapter always begin unknown, correct? So I found a new place and new friends. The story I found here are –or is–about some people with the perfectionist life. Oh that’s really something. I’m a perfectionist too actually, but not in everything. When someone does something just “too” much, that’s pathetic. No offense dude, but that’s the reality.
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Don’t you think it’s so frustrating when someone talks about something in just one perspective? OH WORLD!!! I hate people who had a very small ‘sighting’ about everything. I really am. Nowadays, world slowly changed and we all know the effect, but not leaving what we had before. Some people just see it in negative, like the ‘sight’ really just in one point and won’t get bigger (even one percent.) I’m saying this because hundreds seconds ago, a person just talked and accidentally I hear them talking about me. I’m not saying this because I was the person they talking about, it about them whom see the world so damn small. I didn’t commit crime yet you talking about me –wait…WHAT?
I know how people cannot accept how everything works now, but can they just please do not assuming? How can you know everything is wrong by assuming? COME.ON. You won’t get a clue if you just staring at the crime scene, you have to jump into the scene. I don’t know, maybe they need time to adapt. I don’t want to know actually. I don’t need their explanation, what’s the benefit for me? I will know how they see it? nah. I don’t need it, just act. Words are easier to do than act, yes? The bigger your perspective, the smaller you are. So you won’t put yourself first. Don’t try to find answer, don’t. The answer you actually looking for is right in front your eyes. Sometimes you just seeking, looking, and finding that answer so damn hard because “you seek the truth.” I know you all feel this way. I don’t know what to say again.
So people just please. Make yourself ‘ smaller’.
I’ve holding it for past few days. I know my limit but then again, I keep pushing it. I’ve been trying manage my anger, my sadness, and my ego so none of them freed in same time. But in the end, they all freed in the same time.
This words “I don’t know” won’t help find the source and the seed(?) of everything. I keeping myself in silence since 6pm and trying to hide it but it’s appeared when I’m read a novel. An easy novel about romance. It was the fifth time i read that novel. No matter what, i shed tears. I bring my iPod to give a real time alone. It played rock music but sadly those still flowing down.
I can’t hold up, so I was trying to tell someone but none of them appeared. Well, one appeared but what happened already gone too far and I don’t want to talk about it anymore.
As usual, the ending always tears. No matter what.
Don’t feel guilty or anything. It just an event that you’re not supposed to know. When you missed it, it means you MISSED it. So, no turning back. Go through it.